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Summer week 39

5 days to go!!!
Still no sign of the baby... I have tried everything to enduce the labour but they really are old wives tales and it will only happen when my daughter decides she wants to make an appearance.
I heard walking is a good way to bring on labour and it also encourages the baby to move down into the perfect position. So we went to Gunwharf Quays over the weekend and did alot of walking. She definately moved down further and i spent the evening having stitch like feelings which i thought may develop into contractions but no such luck.
I guess i just need to be patient and wait it out. It is quite scarey though to think every day "is this the day it happens". My biggest worry is that i won't realise that i am in labour. People laugh when i say this and just say "you will definately know about it" but after talking to my mum it seems that is not such a silly fear. She said that she didn't realise when she was in labour with my sister (first born) as she had expected it to hurt more than it was. She only realised when her waters broke and thought "oh maybe i ought to make my way to hospital now".
I was also comforted to find out that my mum didn't have any drugs for any of the three births she went through. She said she tried gas & air with me but decided she didn't like it and continued with nothing. She said it did hurt but not half as bad as she had thought and she didn't feel the need to use the drugs. I have always thought i had a high pain threshold and this makes me think i have inherited it from her. Thats not to say i won't have drugs but i would be so proud of myself if i did it on gas & air alone. We will see!!!
It has now been two weeks since i left work and the boredom hasn't been as bad. I have had friends stopping by and have managed to find things to keep myself busy. The best thing is that my mum works at a school and has been on school holidays so she has made a point of taking me out and generally popping in for a cuppa as much as she can which has been a god send and has definately kept me sane.
I had half hoped i would go into labour over the bank holiday weekend as all our family were away in different places (with the excpetion of my back up birthing partner, my mum) and it would have been so much easier if it had happened then. I don't mean it in a nasty way but it would have been nice to have had a day or two at home with just us and the baby to get our heads around everything without all the fussing that will inevitably happen.
My biggest worry about having the baby is that people will try to interfere and tell us how i should be doing things. Yes i admit i don't fully know what to do and what to expect but i really want me and phil to learn in our own way and only get help when we ask for it. I know people mean well but just coz they bring up their children one way that doesn't mean its right for us, we have to find our own way of doing things and finding out what our baby responds to and what she doesn't. Its all really exciting and i can't wait to start learning all this stuff.
Anyway i must go and get back to laying about doing nothing!! Thats a lie, i have already cleaned the bathroom and kitchen today.
Fingers crossed i will be writing next week to tell you about the labour and post pictures of my new bundle of joy. Or i will be extremely uncomfortable, grouchy and piling curry down my throat!

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